Why I Haven't Updated in almost 2 months

I have two kids now. TWO. It still blows my mind. Let's see... what's been going on in the past almost 8 weeks. Claire is growing and thriving, and we are slowly starting to get in to somewhat of a routine. She is exclusively breastfed and it's actually working this time (maybe a little too well, but more on that later). We have a good nighttime routine and typically R and I are downstairs with everyone bathed and both kids in bed by 8:30, which is pretty good. Claire sleeps about 6 hours or so and is up around 2 or 3, then again at 5 or 6 - at that point I just bring her to bed with us to nurse, doze and snuggle.

She is definitely different than Owen. She doesn't have colic like he did, where he would cry for 4 or 5 hours every night at the same time. But she has days where she will cry all day. Some days she won't nap once for an entire day and scream because she is exhausted. Some days she will sleep all day and only wake up to eat. And some days she is a "normal" newborn who eats, sleeps, poops and is happy. The one thing she loves is me and my boobs. She is starting to warm up to other people and R, but prefers me. She eats on demand, and the chunker is already over 11 pounds. She hates a pacifier and bottle, so needless to say - she is pretty attached to me.

Owen is awesome with her about 90% of the time. There are some random moments of jealousy or where he is too excited or just in a mood where is a little too rough. For the most part, he LOVES her. He gives her kisses, pets her, tells her its ok when she cries, gets her blanket or tries to share his toys and food with her, and it is the cutest thing to hear him yell "Hi Mama, Hi Claire" when he sees us. The way he says her name is adorable, it melts my heart. We have had some issues with O's behavior lately. A mixture of jealousy, uncertainty and the terrible (awful,horrible, nasty) twos. His favorite word is NO or mine, he wants what he wants when he wants it or watch out. He hits, kicks, and a new thing is spit. We are working on it, but disciplining a toddler is hard because he either doesn't understand what we say, or freaks out, and we don't want to hit.

It's definitely been a big adjustment in some ways, like finding time for Owen and I or getting anything done around the house. Juggling a newborn and a toddlers needs can be demanding, and I constantly have to watch Owen around her because he doesn't get that he can't pick her up or roll over her. I can't even believe how much I love her and how I love seeing our little family. There is a lot that we still need to figure out to get ourselves settled, but we are getting there slowly but surely.